Saddest Song Ever

So a couple of weeks ago at one my wine dinner parties that I love so much at my husbands Aunts House, I was asked what my favorite sadist songs was. I have been thinking about this for a while. At first I blurted out "Don't Speak" by No Doubt. I mean a whole song about a break up of two people who were together forever, it is very sad. But then I started thinking again, truly one of the sadists songs I have ever heard is "Silent All these Years" by Tori Amos.

"Excuse me but can I be you for a while
My dog

wont bite if you sit real still
I got the anti-christ in the kitchen yellin at me again
Yeah I can hear that

Been saved again by the garbage truck
I got something to say you know but nothing comes
Yes I know what you think of me- you never shut up
Yeah I can hear that

But what if Im a mermaid
In these jeans of his with her name still on it
Hey but I dont care cause sometimes, I said sometimes
I hear my voice and its been here
Silent all these years

So you found a girl who thinks really deep thoughts
Whats so amazing about really deep thoughts
Boy you best pray that I bleed real soon
Hows that thought for ya

My scream got lost in a paper cup
You think theres a heaven where some screams have gone
I got 25 bucks and a cracker, go you think its enough
To get us there

Cause what if Im a mermaid
In these jeans of his with her name still on it
Hey but I dont care cause sometimes, I said sometimes
I hear my voice and its been here
Silent all these years

Years go by will I still be waiting
For somebody else to understand
Years go by if Im stripped of my beauty
And the orange cloud raining in my head
Years go by will I choke on my tears
Till finally there is nothing left
One more casualty
You know were too easy easy easy

Well I love the way we communicate
Your eyes focus on my funny lip shade
Lets hear what you think of me now but baby dont look up
The sky is falling

Your mother shows up in a nasty dress
Its your turn now to stand where I stand
Everybody lookin at you, here take a hold of my hand
Yeah I can hear them

But what if Im a mermaid
In these jeans of his with her name still on it
Hey but I dont care cause sometimes, I said sometimes
I hear my voice
I hear my voice
I hear my voice
And its been here
Silent all these years
Ive been here
Silent all these years"

I think I love this song because I love the imagery of the mermaid in jeans. I mean what self respecting mermaid hangs out in jeans. I don't know I have been thinking about this song a lot lately. I remember seeing Tori Amos in concert and hearing her sing this song at the top of her lungs and being floored. I don't know why this song has struck me as the saddest song ever, but it has always been in the back of my head.
On the weightloss front, I am craving french fries. Like I would kill some one for a french fry. So I am drinking a fabulous bottle of King Estate Pinot Noir and am not even thinking about one french fry.

I said no!

So I love it when our clients bring us stuff. It means they love us and don't want to yell at us for silly things. Today one of our clients brought us pizza and cinnamon bread. I love cinnamon bread. This was super hard for me to say no too. The food smelled great, and everyone was eating it and chatting and eating, and I wanted it so bad. But I said no and kept going. Walked by there again, said no again and again and again. It was really hard.
I am very proud of myself for saying no so many times and didn't even give in once for just a little bit of icing. I was very good.
I guess I want the 10 pounds more then I ever thought I did.

This week's weigh in

So today I jumped on the scale, I wasn't at all worried this week. For the past few days, I have been battling a very bad cold, so for like 3 days, I didn't eat. Now, I don't want to lose weight by starving myself and you know me, I get sad and cranky when I am not eating. So even though I was very happy with my results on the scale, I am going to have to work just as hard to keep that weight off and lose more in the next couple of weeks.
Weight loss
-4.7lbs.
Current weight:
165.8 (I am under 170 again!!!)

So what do I do, I go to the movies, but I counted the candy and popcorn I ate once I got home. I didn't even tuck a point under my hat for later. I am still hacking up some green stuff which I hope isn't any part of my lung and get tried by walking across the room (so my exercise routine is a little off) but I am happy that I am closer to my 10 pound goal then ever and this has given me even greater resolve for next week. Of course I am going to need it, cause next week is 4th of July and boy oh do I love to drink on the 4th. Still haven't figured out a survival plan for that, as soon I figure one out, I will let you know.
On other news.
Transformers 2!
Hilarius movie. I mean, I didn't know which was funnier the giant robots beating each other up in Petra which for some reason is right next to the pyramids of Giza. I mean those places are not even a close by a little bit. But hey it's a movie right? I mean after all it did have giant robots in it in the first place. But here is a map. Giza is by Cairo in Egypt and Petra is well, no were near Cairo. More around southern Jordon. I mean really people, buy a freaking map.

Really Really Bad

A letter to a client I "helped" earlier today,
Dear Abusive Lady,
No you dog is not going to die because you made the decision to remove her ovaries. Dogs don't even realize that they have ovaries. If you had kept the E-Collar on your dog, then she would not be licking at her incision. No you can not remove products from the property without paying for them. No the Doctor is not going to perform those services for free, she also has mouths to feed and food to put on the table. We are not a charity. Please stop talking in Spanish to another client next to you while I am trying to talk to you....I am sorry....I didn't catch that...did you just call me a puta? and whatever that word is that sounds an awful lot like cunt. No I am sorry, please take you scanty ass mutt and don't let the door hit your big fat ass on the way out.
Love
Your favorite Receptionist

p.s. Yes, your dog is going to die because you took out its ovaries, we were just lying to you to get all of your money. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAH

As you can see, I had yet another wonderful and stress free day at work. Sometimes I just want to bang my head with that annoying dot matrix printer.....where is that beer.

Happy Hour Starts at 5pm

That was the text I received yesterday morning, and boy was I ready to party. I love hanging out with my husband's aunt and her neighbors. We open a bottle of wine and talk and talk and talk. At one point we have 3 different conversations at once and boy we are loud. This is usually after our 3rd bottle of wine. Not only did we have some amazing bottles wine, tacos but also an amazing lamb curry that Andi's neighbor Brent made. So I ate and drank and drank some more and this more woke up with a smile on my face.
Granted I drank way past my allowance and snack heavily, yet once again. Are you starting to see a pattern, cause I am falling back into one. What I love about living in Miami is how much more social my husband and I are. We have friends that we hang out with and do silly things with like smoke hookah or just sit around and have a conversation over a couple of drinks. When we were living in Tallahassee many of our friends had moved away after college and the people that stayed with in Tally were few and busy with their own lives. Moving down here last year (omg I have lived here for almost a year!!!) it forced us to go out and be social. Also there is just so much more to do in Miami. I love the fact that I can walk to a movie or just hop ( get it!)and skip to my favorite brew pub Titanic. Sorry I know that was bad.
So yes I do see myself falling back into old patterns and yes I can make up all the excuses I want about going out and having fun, but the real truth is when I step up on the scale and I am going to have to just keep moving on.

Oh no not again

So if you have ever seen the movie "Beerfest" and after the first night of "training" for the beer games, Jay Chandrasenkhar's character "Barry" wakes up naked next to a dead dead with it's throat riped out and blood on his face. He gets up and as he is running away he says, "No, not again." That is how I felt this moving minus the dead deer.
So yesterday work was insane, I was getting yelled at left and right by clients, doctors, just everyone. I was super stressed and talked Phil in to go to Titanic. I know! But I did get a salad and only two beers, but being a little buzzed after those two beers, I just got the biggest idea ever! Let's go to Whole Foods and get more wine and maybe a snack. So after getting two bottles of sparkling Shiraz (a purple bubbly sparkling wine) and a chocolate cake (at least it was organic) and came home. It was super fun night and after eating half the cake (Phil ate some too) and one bottle later, I woke up this am going "Oh not again" but I will go on.
So I worked out for an hour and had a healthy lunch afterwards and very much enjoyed my night of silly debauchery with my husband and will not regret it.

Late Night Snacker

One of my favorite things to do in the evening is to sit back with a glass of wine or beer and a big plate of something junky. One of the best snacks is melted Velveeta cheese with salsa and some sour cream in my very own queso dip. Ok so if you haven't gotton the picture yet, I am in a snacky mood. So I pulled a piece of my 2 point cheddar cheese snack and poured myself a diet coke. Ok it isn't nachos and beer but it is something esle. I keep saying to myself, I don't really need the snacks, I am a better person for it.
But I am still ridculously snacky and it is very hard to move past that.
Anyone esle have nights like that?